my birthday was awesome!
i got more moolah than presents!(:
i loike!(:
at least there'e something to be spent!(:
A THOUSAND THANKIEWS
for the sms-es,frienster comments,phonecalls etc.
people!(:
HEY PEOPLE!
IM FOURTEEN!
so i ought to be more mature!
okeh fine!
that means i have to think like
a young adult now.
because now im FOURTEEEEEEEEEEN!
a day after my birthday.
i got an EFFING HIGH FEVERRR!
i can hardly stand nor see.
everything was blur laa can.
it all comes so suddenly.
like the moment i wake up that morning i was sooooooo dizzy.
then my temperature keeps on rising.
i can barely walk.
i was so mooooody.
i can hardly breathe.
i have no appetite.
so i skip breakfast and luch.
i only had light dinner.
just soup and some other stuffs!
i had panadol&i dozed off to sleeep!
i had a much higher fever yesterday.
everything was okeh at first,
i did hand in my Option Form.
i went to town with mum.
then on the way home.
i was FREEEEEZING COLDDD in the bus.
then my fever came back againnn.
like wtf?!
and again i was sickkkkkkk the wholeeee night!
pffft!
how pathetic!(:
hehes!(:
im feeling slightly better now!
but still im feeling a bit feverish!(:
hehes!(:
then tmr still got SANA course.
i hope i can make it!
hehes!(:

at times i just want us to be together like old times again.all those laughters i had with you.all those sweet talks. and me, waking up every morning beaming my heart out knowing there'll always be you by my side going through everything with me.every single second i lived with you meant so much to me. everyday, i'll try my best to be the most perfect girlfriend for you. so you won't leave me for someone better. i bare all those people looking down on me. having relationships at such a young age. what do i know about them? i stood firm on my ground searing to myself there would be nothing in this world that would i would exchange for you. i will love you for as long as i lived in this world. don't care what others might say. don't care how much you suffered.just love him,hanna. i know at times, you deserve more of me.though at times i hurt you. i apologized.you forgive.and at times you apologized even though euu did nothing wrong.but now.everything changes.i've always known there's someone out there much more better than me. trying to take you away. but still all those fences i built ard euu were broken. some one else entered your life. you ended it.it clear to me. she's better than me. she deserves you.you deserves her.you love her.she loves you.she's replacing me.all the nonsense i've tolerated.complaints&criticizes from your mates.tolerating your horny side.and all the tears i shed for you have all gone to waste.but. as long as you're happy. i will be happy. it hurts alot. but i'll soon get over it. its almost nine moths we've been together. i dont know how long will it take. but i will be okay.i will love you no matter what.because you;re the only one that really brightened up everyday of my life without fail. & no. im not making euu regret of what euu did. im ok with it. i just wanna let you know what i feel now.
im happy people. im really happy. and i will try my best to smile the widest smile even if i have to force myself one. my heart will heal. but it'll take time.im done...

COME ON HANNA!
JUST FORGET ABOUT HIM!
ANDD MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE!

oh efffffffff laaa!

my birthday is TWO DAYS awayy.
& i dnt feel like celebrating!
OH F!

i'll let the pictures do the talking laa.
heh(:
im lazy to update anw!

so much for my bloody HAPPY ENDING!
the guy whom i USED to love so much and will give my all
left me to ENJOY himself.
but i dont mind laa.
as long as he's happy.
im JOVIAL!
LIKE AS IF!
im trying to forget the past laa
tapi macam susah gitu.
because whatever i do
aku teringatkan dier.
but still.
he have moved on.
with a NEW girl.
so.
i have to move on too.
show him i am better off without him!
im happy & much more
JOVIAL without him!

look on the bright side hanna.
im free to move ard.
nobody to really care about me.
except for my friends.
i can concentrate on studies.
i can be the girl i've always wanted to be.
i dnt need to take care of his feelings
and be PERFECT!
IM TOTALLY FREEE!

but on the other hand.
im gonna miss him.
every piece of him.
his sweet talks.
his touch.
his jokes.
his voice.
his kisses.
EVERYTHING!
but too bad all of himself.
whatever he is that once belongs to me
is now someone else's.
i cnt give my all to him anymore.
but i'll pray that euu guys will be happy.
happy.happy tau!

im ULTIMATELY LOW NOW.
i just want to be ALONEEEE for the time being.
might not be updating to much.
im suffering a heartache liaox!

but dnt worry.
one day.
im gonna step up to him
and prove to him that
IM MUCH MORE OF A STRONGER GIRL
EVEN WITHOUT HIM!

i wanna cry now!
byeeee!

X-country is
SUPER TIRING!
i got TOP 10!
number 9 babe!
ahah(:
i halfway run cannot tahan.
but still i carry on!
then LOLLIPOP.
MY RUNNING INSPIRATION.
I LEFT HER BEHIND!
woops! =X
hanna tak baik seyy!
A THOUSAND
APOLOGIES,
LOLLIPOP!

okeh.
i want her to run with me.
but instead.
i left her ALONEEEEE.
to run!
HANNA IS MEAN!

CONGRATULATIONS!
to all Top 20 prize-winners.
especially from STORM&2C!
&most importantly
CANDYLADIES!
iLOVEyou guys!(:

there was some mix-up in the positioning uh.
but still.
i got top 10.
okeh.
im lazy to elaborate about today.
because im TIREDD.

i'll post pictures later laa eh(:
okeh!

byebyeeeee wonderful readers!
DANG!
there's skool tmr!

ESOK X-COUNTRY!
wahh seyy!
best!
aku mau larilari!(:
&ystd.
i went to CINTAKU's house for open house like that.
i went with Sofia.
aku malas nak elaborate more.
because im kindda in a BADDD mood skarang!
but i can tell you.
its was FUN ystd with Sofia&the food was
SUPERRR laa!(:
macam my mother nyer masakan!(:
ahah(:

back to what i want to post.
why cnt parents understand me.
i mean why are they like some. . .
i want them to love me for who i am.
NOT what i am.
okeh.
maybe a bit is what i am.
lets get straight to the point.
mum nows about me&CINTAKU.
she was all BIZARRE at first.
then she was okeh.
she said boyfriends are boyfriends.
studies are studies.
concentrate on studies first.
then boyfriends.
okeh.
at least at that moment i felt like she understood me.
she dnt mind.
as long as my priority is STUDIES.
I DID PUT STUDIES FIRST!
then.
ystd.
just because i cnt accompany her at home.
& i went to CINTAKU house she went all.
NAGGY!.
EVERY SINGLE THING i do
she will always points out to CINTAKU.
like for example.
when i smile or laught for no reason.
she will be like.
"Why so happy? OH! i know! euu got to see your SHAFIQ right?
me also forget!"
hey!
i was just smiling for fun.
& everytime i go near her she will be talking about
CINTAKU.CINTAKU.CINTAKU.
its irritating me.
this is pathetic.
i just want to be happy for ONCE with him
and every thing was okeh.
until mum finds out about this!
HEY!
at least CINTAKU care for me okeh?!
he gave me the support that i need.
at least i got someone who is so concern about me.
&I LOVE HIM!
i just want my mother to understand me,
just as well as how CINTAKU understand me.
he's like my EVERYTHING.
just put yourself in my shoes.
would you like it if i DID the same to you and dad?
you wouldn't would you?
i don't too.
i know you want me to concentrate on my studies.
I WILL!
I PROMISE I WILL MAKE YOU HAPPY.
I PROMISE I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD.
just for this once.
let me have him in my life.
because he completes the puzzle in my life okeh?
understand me.
i cnt afford to lose him NOW.
so what if there is a GAZILLION guys out there
when i grow up?!
i STILL want him okeh?
like i said.
I WILL LOVE HIM NOMATTER WHAT.
just like how you love dad!
so.
stop making a fuss out of it!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
maaf zahir dan batin(:

okeh.
i've said that for like a GAZLLION times already.
ahah(:
its nice to say it you know.
ystd was the first day laa
& we did basic stuffs.
like giving final touch-ups to the house
then susun kuih-muih.
this year.
kuih muih PENUH satu meja.
tak nak kalah seyy(:
ahah(:
since its first day kan.
we tak gi maner-maner xcept for going to
my other grandma house.
okeh.
then went home straight
mesti banyak tetamu.
ahah(:
so kind.
we have visitors till 11 to midnight.
ard there.
&then i think i dozed off uh.
while waiting for them to go home.
ahah(:
nasib trak der orang nampak aku tidur.
weii!
aku penat dok!
& yea.
FINALLY
i managed to got henna on my hand!
LAST MINUTELY!
then kan.
lawa tau.
I LOIKE it!(:
okeh.
abeh nak bangga(:
i'll post the pics later laa(:
when i free to use adobe.
then today sunday.
CONFIRM rumah RAMAI SEKALI orang!
da tak leh kluar lagi tau!(:
k.da.
i want to go mandi.
or maybe not(:
anw.
im STRESSSSSS FREEEE!
no more EOY!
so NOMORE MUGGING SESSIONS!(:
goodgood.(:
then i can go out whenever i want to!(:
shopping anyone?(:

k.im done now.
seriously(:
byeebyeeee wonderful people!(:

minal aidil wal fa izin(:

i feel like cursing now.
really.really LOUDDD!
i was in the middle of sms-ing my sayang.
when suddenly.
MY PHONE DIED!
AAHH!
then until now.
cannot on!
UGH!
asal uh handphone aku buat pasal skarang?
tak boleh tunggu lepas rayer ke?
alahaiii!
then i dunnoe how to tell my sayang.
because i dunnoe his current number.
OH FLUSHHHHHH!
[cursing continues]
meanwhile.
me.mommy.aunt&sister.
we baked cookies today.
okeh maybe not cookies
tapi Kuih Tart.
ahah(:
then i remember when i was 5 i used to looooove
making Kuih Tart with my Aunt.
& SURPRISINGLY i was good at it.
ahah(:
i've got talent in making Kuih Tart yaw!
abeh nak bangga!(:
okeh fine.
History paper was average.
i think i did QUITE well.
& the mugging sessions in the library does help.
though its stressful.
but it'll do me good.
see sayang!
i really went library to MUGGG laa!(:
nevermind.
mug now.
be STRESS TO THE MAX now.
then after the exams,
BOOKSS AWAY&FREEEEEEDOM!
i wouldn't want to talk about studies AT ALL.
then its all about me & my life.
of course.
there's streaming and results thingy to worry about.
BUT.
why not have OUR BIT OF FUN!
before starting on SERIOUS BUSINESS.
A WHOLE NEW YEAR!
OH! &
Hari raya is just around the corner.
& i haven't have time to kindda prepare myself yet.
I WANT TO GO GEYLANG AGAIN!
i want go get henna on my hand!
& i need to buy accessories for Hari Raya
to match with my Baju Kurong.
this is SO LAST MINUTE!
okeh.
dnt panic!
mom says we're gonna have our LAST trip to GEYLANG
before Hari Raya.
so there's still time.
when?when?when?
i got exams to worry about!
OH!
well.
so does the rest!
hanna.hanna!
okeh.okeh.
im starting to have a tummy ache now.
i SERIOUSLY GOT TO GO!

byebyeeee wonderful people!(:

my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!my phone's dead!(:
SO DEAD!

okeh.
im DONEE with Malay Paper&English Paper.
i dunnoe how i did it.
but i could have done BETTER!
i've said this once and im saying it again!
EOY IS MAKING ME GILA-GILA!
ahah(:
i've been doing some SERIOUS MUGGING this few days.
so most of the time im found in the LIBRARY of course!
i cannot really concentrate at home laa seyy.
JUST TOO MANY DISTRACTIONS!
ahah(:
so.
i studied in the library with Sofia.
its nice studying with her laa!
seriously.
actually kan.
im supposed to be printing my geography notes tau.
but i dunnoe how.
i ended up blogging!
ahah(:
see.
my BLOG's going to COMAAAAA laa!
this Thursday will be Geography.
and Friday is HISTORY!
i have a few more chapters to cover laa seyy!
oh fush.
today.
i got back my Mathematics class test.
the one on Sets,Stats and Congruence and Similarity.
ahah(:
& I GOT 20/30!
a GREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT IMPROVEMENT!
im so HAPPY!
i've NEVER passed a Maths test this well before!
and this time!
I NAILED IT!
ahah(:
then my History test.
on chapter [i forgot]
i got 15/20.
looks like MUGGING do really helps!
ahah(:
this REALLY made my day laa seyy!
aku HAPPY! aku HAPPY! aku HAPPY!
and because im so happy.
i think i just irritated my huun!
woops!=X
sorry!
i've typed long enough kan?
ahah(:

i wonder what's for break fast today?
hehes!(:
byebyeeee wonderful people!(: